btw

this is my diet!

Day 1: 500 calories (or less)Day 2: 500 calories (or less)3: 300 calories4: 400 calories5: 100 calories6: 200 calories7: 300 calories8: 400 calories9: 500 calories10: Fast11: 150 calories12: 200 calories13: 400 calories14: 350 calories15: 250 calories16: 200 calories17: Fast18: 200 calories19: 100 calories20: Fast21: 300 calories22: 250 calories23: 200 calories24: 150 calories25: 100 calories26: 50 calories27: 100 calories28: 200 calories29: 200 calories30: 300 calories31: 800 calories32: Fast33: 250 calories34: 350 calories35: 450 calories36: Fast37: 500 calories38: 450 calories39: 400 calories40: 350 calories41: 300 calories42: 250 calories43: 200 calories44: 200 calories45: 250 calories46: 200 calories47: 300 calories48: 200 calories49: 150 calories50: Fast

confused

okay, it's going really fine, so far. just a few cups coffee and lots of water.
under 500 calories! thats really good, cause today i stARt with my new diet.
if i screw this up tonight im going to throw up. i can't fail now.
this is going to make my body thinner, i just want to be thinner.

right now my weight is 59 kg, after this 50 diet-days i have to weight at least 50!!

hugs

thin

oh fuck. my mother want to watch me when im eating today.

fuckfuckfuck.

after that im going to jump on the trampoline and do lots og situps.

this world is not for you

it's like a fucking war inside of me.
i wish i was dead.. im already dead inside. whats the differens if i walk on the earth or if i am under it?
i dont get it.
let me go now, i can't take this shit.